How do we become aware of our thinking?
We ask ourselves and then wait for what comes out.
What we learned last week was that the first thing we have to do is accept that it is. Read last week’s blog for more info.
Whatever the circumstance we receive it and we don’t push it away.
The 2nd step is to become aware of what we think about it.
So the guy you have been super close with Brian, has started taking Susie, one of your friends, on dates. You have accepted that God has allowed that in your life. Next, become aware of how you really think about it.
So you do a thought download. I share about that here. You would write Brian and Susie go on dates at the top of your page and then you write down everything that is in your brain. You don’t edit or try and sound pretty, you just get it out. Once you think you have written everything, write some more.
If your brain asks questions, answer them.
Example: Why did he pick Susie over me? He wanted to pick Susie, he didn’t want to pick me.
What does this mean now? It probably means the same as before
Why does it hurt so bad? Because I wanted him to want me.
Ask yourself why. Why do I want him to pick me? and answer that. Why do I want it to mean anything, and answer that.
The whole purpose of this exercise is to become aware of what we are thinking. So answer questions, ask yourself why, keep on digging.
There is so much for you to learn about YOU, right there on that paper.
Once you have it all out begin to look for similar themes or feelings. If you have a lot of thoughts that make you feel hurt then circle all of those. If you have a lot of thoughts around him not caring about you circle those. Use this time to begin to understand just where you are at.
Then you can see that I am hurt, sad and disappointed from thinking this way.
Now do me a favor, do not then add judgment to all of these thoughts. This is where you create unnecessary suffering. Don’t think you shouldn’t be thinking this way, or that you should think differently. Just see you right there. This is where I am at. I see you. I hear you. I love you right here.
Come back next week where I will teach you what to do next.
Hoping for lots of awareness,
Angie
